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about
claire
20 yrs old 9th dec cps.nygh.njcian.nus life sci drama fan outdoor gal beginner chef looking for a goal in life things i wanna do
steamboat go for a spin ride the singapore flyer a night stay in a local hotel dress up my hamsters wardrobe makeover Tagboard
Exits
graceshuning oac07-08 waikit ben hong mervyn jessie terence kaiting shangfei xiuwen ailin xiangjun kah han hsiangwei rachel nicole bernice jia yin doris yini archives
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Design: doughnutcrazyIcon: morphine_kissed |
leading a working-auntie kind of life
for the past few days, my life is just a routine. life gets monotonous, boring because there's a lack of goal. not that i hate it or anything. but when i try to imagine myself, perhaps 6 years down the road, stuck in a 9 to 5 office job,leading my current working life, it scares me. i do enjoy the time spent with my colleagues, the small talks with them while scanning docs, or along the corridors...the lunches... but it's not adding enough colour to my life. i'm so glad that i'm currently doing familiar things.no awful stats or econs journals or studies to digest.. :D i became the official slides churner :) it's a little hard to put together a set of slides with content that you are not familiar with at all. Using the most basic tool: microsoft ppt 2003?(i would really prefer 2007 version, cause it has cool effects that gives your slides more oomph)and the awful company ppt template, i have to make the presentations professional and engaging. My brain juices are drying up, and i'm so tired just trying to live up to my boss's expectations. somehow, i'm lucky that he thinks that my slides are good, even though i myself am not convinced. and then this becomes a vicious cycle, because he thinks i did a good job, so he expects more and better slides the next time, and so i have to meet his higher expectations and then i will be more stressed and then eventually i produce something that is better.. then he expect even even more... so my stress level will just keep increasing... :( or perhaps i'm just thinking too much... maybe i'm just stressing myself out unnecessarily. maybe subconsciously, i keep pushing myself to do better because i want to hear the praises. i like that gratification. maybe i'm a sucker for stress... but dont you agree that it feels so good when u manage to overcome that stress and do a really good job? thats probably why i find myself staying in office even though it's past my office hours or bringing work home to complete.. and staying up till 2am just to finish data entry. it's a little crazy because sometimes i think i'm more enthusiastic and committed than a perm staff... that enthusiasm in work is giving me less free time. free time at home is so precious. i dont even have the time and mood to catch my fav dramas online. and i've been sleeping at 12 plus waking up at 7am everyday... (i dont even slp that late and wake up that early every sch day)isnt it sch holidays?!? the thought of being in office again in 8 to 9 hours time is just scary. it's like i work slp then work again. omg. what kind of holiday is that? time passes so quickly... if i dont start doing something meaningful during this period of time, i will so regret it when holz end. it's already halfway through the holz!!! :S claire! take control of ur life. add colour to it!!! be yourself, inject some youthfulness into your mundane life. stop leading that working auntie kind of life!!! u dont need anymore premature ageing. o.O i dunno whether i should allow myself to rant or try to control it. i dun wanna be seen as someone with a lot of negative vibes... how ah? i wanna help shuning sew stuff. coming up with new designs should be really interesting:) maybe that could help inject some fun into my life. shu, u need help? |