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claire
20 yrs old 9th dec cps.nygh.njcian.nus life sci drama fan outdoor gal beginner chef looking for a goal in life things i wanna do
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recharge.
i just had 2 mid terms and finished 2 lab reports. i'm so glad i made it out. alive. the past week was horrible... i was constantly in an emo state, plus i was memorizing metabolic pathways everyday... i even had to wrap up my disgusting recess week with 2 lab reports. super drain at the moment. for the first time, i really overworked my brain. it feels rather fried right now. i bet thousands of chemical reactions took place in my brain while i sat for my test... overheated perhaps. awful headaches mark the end of my papers. oh well, i've got the rest of the week to recharge. before i start running again. it's a long way ahead... so i better start soon... coz i've got a feeling that time isnt on my side.  but before all that mugging starts, i've got sleepover and dinner to look forward to. plus nice korean+chinese hits on radio every night! warning: it's gonna be an emo post.
i'm emitting lots of negative vibes now. super vexed. partly due to the mountain high pile of work i've yet to clear and partly because i've got a lot of rubbish stuck in my brain. if grace read this, she'll probably think that i've nothing better to do... wasting my time thinking abt all these insignificant stuff. but i need to empty my thoughts. even the radio is talking abt emo topics like: how do u define happiness.. and they just played mayday's song: u're not truly happy. T_T anyway, someone made a comment about me.. and that got me started thinking about what impression i'm leaving on my friends or to strangers. on my way back home, that super long walk back... i cant help but think about what my other friends have said about me before(i kind of let my imagination run wild)...is there anyone that can tell me straight in my face what kind of person do i appear to be? do i appear to be angsty(i realise there's no such word in dictionary)? too direct? is too direct good? or has my directness turned into plain rudeness? are people irritated by my nagging or complaints? do i appear to be a very unhappy person? [i'm really not kaes.] but if someone were to really point out my mistakes... and tell me how i should improve to be a better person or perhaps a better friend to others, would i listen? this is so complex. relationships between people are so hard to understand. right now, i feel like a rotten friend. cause xue en's gonna leave for cambridge on tues.. but i cant even meet her before she leaves. we kept postponing the meet up... and now it's too late.. :( have i mentioned this b4? (i have really bad memory)that i've always wondered whether anyone would detect my presence if i wasnt around. and that i've always feared that if i never take the initiative to start a conversation, no one will talk to me. and that if i dont suggest to meet up, no one would ask me out. aarh. this sucs. depressing ttm. what is this man? mid life crisis ah?! there's one thing i'm dead certain, i care too much about what others think. how i wish i had pat's great listening ear, lari's appreciativeness, xw's demureness, yili's sincerity, sf's sense of humor, xj's sweetness, mk's innocence, jy's kindness, shermin's smiliness, grace's guts... hmmph. i guess it's gonna be a better day tmr. i hope i haven made u too emo. :X blame the emo songs for making me super emo.  the last line is so true.
little dreams of mine.
so what do u do when u're bored? when u're stoning or day dreaming, what do u think about? most of the time i find myself in dreamland, having these little wishes/dreams. blogs and dramas are the source of my inspirations... even if these dreams dont come true.. i feel happy just thinking about them.. and imagining how each one would turn out to be. :D  pillow fights. it'll be really cool to have a slumber party.. and engaged in a pillow fight with my bestest buddies! no feathers though. cotton pillows preferred.  find a spot in the wilderness. or under a really big beautiful tree's shade. lay on the picnic mat, read a book, play a game and have afternoon tea. take a short nap and wake up to see the sunset...  pack my bag and go backpacking with my friends . travel to as many countries as possible and immerse myself in others' culture.  i wanna be able to take photos that will make ppl smile, and remind them of the great times they had. i want to be able to feel the happiness coming from the photos. i want a really cool and big kitchen. with lots of funky and colourful kitchen gadgets! cooking will be such a joy!  at least 1 night stay in a local hotel. preferably MBS. cause i want to swim in this pool.. and chill out by the pool while admiring singapore's skyline. go for a spin/road trip with friends. with a convertible car, blasting music, aviator shades and most importantly a GPS. haha.. wont that be the perfect weekend getaway?!?! trying out new and special recipes with my friends. and hopefully everyone will love the food! sit at a beautifully furnished cafe, sipping coffee and watching the crowd go by for the whole day. bet it'll feel good just to laze around and watch people :D  swinging on the hammock, with the cooling sea breeze blowing in my face( minus the fishy stench of from the sea though), listen to relaxing music. that's how ppl enjoy life right? :) now i can go to bed feeling really happy ^^
life goes on..
5 weeks of sch had passed. 1 week left to recess week,(is it me or does sem 1 always seem to pass so quickly?!)and i'm so dreading this coming week. it's the week that assignments and reports start pouring in. and horrible news like "THERE'S GONNA BE A MID TERM EXAM WORTH ??% WHEN RECESS WEEK ENDS".. it sucs when u know the road ahead is bumpy, yet u have no choice but to take that path. so far, i know i have 2 lab reports + 2 mid terms coming up, plus that whole load of mind maps to complete and notes to go through. eew... and this is what happens when u have been slacking for a long period of time. i guess sometimes it's better not to know anything at all in advance. ignorance is a bliss. hopefully, the week ahead would be more bearable than i imagined it to be. i really wish so.  wouldnt it be nice to go on a picnic with a bunch of frens to chill out?
frens forever. i promise.
feel so blessed to have them as my buddies. i always have fun even if we just meet for a simple lunch. i guess with the right bunch of frens, it doesnt matter where i am or what i do...because just being around them makes me feel so happy :D  learning in progress.
just returned(ok, perhaps not just. 3hrs ago..) from my senior's 21st birthday party @ southbank condo. southbank has such an awesome swimming pool! great place to take lots and lots of photos. had a great evening honing my photography skills. tweaked the colours of some photos to make them look(at least in my opinion) better. how i wish i had a dslr... it's a pity some photos were blur.. probably due to my shaky hands and the lack of light later in the evening. nonetheless, i had so much fun. :)since many guests were really late, pris and i went around the swimming pool to snap as many shots as possible. we even deliberately posed in some photos... haha.. probably appeared retarded to the others. love the natural lighting from the sunset. here's some of my practice shots. :D    the pretty birthday girl!  nice candles. i think they're made by her.  sweet couple. i love taking photos of couple.  pris by the pool. the colour wasnt very nice, probably because there's not enough lighting. so i changed it to black and white. and it turns out looking better than before.   always so funny!  cool photo. off to bed now. mozzies are attacking me!!!!!!!!!!!!
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